Oh! How I love my boys.
I just loved them so much.
I love them so much I could eat them!! :)
(I always tell them that and nibble on their little chicken legs and arms- they giggle and laugh so hard!)
The time spent with them is so precious.
I want to do better at remembering that.
I saw a clip on mormon.org/people today in Relief Society class.
It was about a mother who had lost her 5 year old son to a sledding accident.
UNFATHOMABLE.
I thought long and hard about that. Actually, I think a lot about my children dying.
It helps me not take for granted the time that I do have with them, it helps me try to live with no regrets.
Am I listening to them?
Am I looking at them while they talk?
Am I saying enough "I love you's"?
Am I showing them how much I care?
And I thought.
I need to start thinking differently than "unfathomable".
No one can ever tell me that my children wouldn't be taken from me tomorrow.
What I need to remember though, is that my children are just being lent to me.
They are not mine yet.
Not only do I need to live to be worthy of them, I need to deserve them.
They are still Heavenly Father's, and I need to remember that.
The Lord could call them home at anytime, but I need to have confidence that He is in charge.
I hope and pray that something so tragic and devastating would NEVER....I repeat, NEVER come knocking on my door, but should it, I hope I will remember that my children still belong to Heavenly Father.
I will live worthy of them, to be able to be a "forever family."
I love you, Kai and Jaiden. I love you so much.
Thank you Monika for this.
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