Homeschooling-I'm gonna die

I have been thinking...

something that I don't like to think about...

but the thought keeps popping back into my mind...

and swirling...taunting me every day...

I have been contemplating on homeschooling.

Yes, you heard right.

Homeschooling my kids.

YA RIGHT,

you might say.

Not you!

I hear them say.

I know, I know, I agree! Not me!

But really, the thought has been rolling around in my brain and I am slowly starting to embrace it.

I don't know why.

I don't know how.

I have, however, noticed a trend in many of my friends and associates converting over from public schooling to homeschooling and I've been wondering what this is all about.

I used to swear up and down, down and up that I'd NEVER EVER EVER NEVER homeschool.

Homeschooling was for weirdos!

I would say.

But given the circumstances of our public schools these days, one can't help but wonder if our little ones will learn anything good, let alone be safe.

So much violence and so much immorality has plagued our once safe schools and I can't help but wonder if Heavenly Father is slowly preparing me for the possibility of keeping my children at home a little while longer.

A friend voiced to me the same thing.

"Perhaps God has a plan for our children's generation and needs them to be a bit more shielded during those vulnerable years... retain their innocence a bit longer... whatever the reason, maybe this is why so many of us are now considering it."

Sure, everything I ever dreamed of doing with my life--KICKING THE KIDS OUT to go to school so that I could clean, read, go back to school or work, or find something that's for ME has sort of flown out the window for now, but I can't help but feel that my children come before anything and everything and that this would be a well invested thing I (we=Ronny and I) could do for them.

I still don't know if this is really what I will be doing, I'm still waiting for that CLEAR answer from the Lord, but if it's the right thing for our family, I will go and do.

Anyone else out there think the same things? Got any helps? suggestions?

ps. I'm not an organized creative, educated (in a sense that I wouldn't feel comfortable teaching anyone past kindergarten!!) OR patient mother...so how the heck I'm going to learn how to homeschool AND teach things to my children is a COMPLETE mystery...just in case you were wondering. :)